Jun. 7th, 2011

amielzbth: (viv3)
I'm not sure I have songs that make me feel guilty. Actually...maybe I have one...  This song is a tough one because it happened back in 2000 in my mistress to a married man days and before anyone asks, yes I regretted I ever did such a thing, but no, I'm not sure I'd change it because if I did I wouldn't be who I am today.

Anyway, he and I listened to a lot of Peter Murphy together as he was the one who got me into him.  This song was a song that we listened to a great deal.  The reason this song makes me feel guilty is because in April of 2000 his wife had his in-laws over and I had given him the option of coming over to my place if he felt he couldn't stand it.  He actually took me up on it.  That night we had a lot of sex.  Then he went home late.  I had emailed him and hadn't heard from him for two weeks.  I found out why.  That same night he was with me he had turned off his cell phone so there would be no "interruptions".  Well...his wife had been trying to call him because that night his sister was in a horrible car accident.  A drunk driver had hit her car going in the opposite direction of the State Thruway and killed her.  Every time I hear this song I think about how he should have been home that night.  It took me YEARS to stop blaming myself.  YEARS.  I still feel guilty, though...every time this song is played...





> > day 01 - your favorite song
> > day 02 - your least favorite song
> > day 03 - a song that makes you happy
> > day 04 - a song that makes you sad
> > day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone
> > day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
> > day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
> > day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
> > day 09 - a song that you can dance to
> > day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
> > day 11 - a song from your favorite band
> > day 12 - a song from a band you hate
> > day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
> > day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
> > day 15 - a song that describes you
> > day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
> > day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
> > day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
> > day 19 - a song from your favorite album
> > day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
> > day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
> > day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
> > day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
> > day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
> > day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
> > day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
> > day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
> > day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty

> > day 29 - a song from your childhood
> > day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

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