The Blame Game...

Is it worth blaming others when the fault is one's own?  

I ask myself this question every day as I did that very thing for years.  When something went bad I blamed everyone and everything else making myself look like the victim when in reality it was me the whole time not bothering to really work on things and really look for work.  I would get myself into these situations, blame the other person(s) involved when shit went bad and never bother to look in the mirror.  I would hold grudges just so that I could victimize myself more.

In the end it bridges were burned and friends were cost because I refused to see exactly what I was really doing.

When I look back at my old entries I often pray and hope that I remember not to repeat that way of living ever again and to own up to my mistakes.  

I may be a woman, but even women can grow a pair.

Good night all...
Ami 

The Blame Game...

Is it worth blaming others when the fault is one's own?  

I ask myself this question every day as I did that very thing for years.  When something went bad I blamed everyone and everything else making myself look like the victim when in reality it was me the whole time not bothering to really work on things and really look for work.  I would get myself into these situations, blame the other person(s) involved when shit went bad and never bother to look in the mirror.  I would hold grudges just so that I could victimize myself more.

In the end it bridges were burned and friends were cost because I refused to see exactly what I was really doing.

When I look back at my old entries I often pray and hope that I remember not to repeat that way of living ever again and to own up to my mistakes.  

I may be a woman, but even women can grow a pair.

Good night all...
Ami